O Israel

O Israel, how fickle are your ways
One moment your heart sings to the Lord
The next to Baal do your arms raise
His unashamed love cuts like a sword
Bringing you once again to your knees
To stand by His side fully restored

O Israel, in you I see my own heart
Crying out for forgiveness and mercy
But when I receive it I turn to depart
I flee to the uttermost parts of the sea
But even there I am within His reach
He holds me so that I may find jubilee

O Lord, give me a heart after Your own
That I may never stray again as did Israel
For with Your son’s blood did You my sins atone
I strive to cling to You on my own but to no avail
Only You can hold me with such strength
That no thief’s trickery may prevail

O Israel, which way will we run?
In His everlasting arms will we rest?
Or will we be lost in this world undone?
O Lord, hold me tight to Your chest
That peace I may find in You alone
Settle within whether I be cursed or blessed.

O Israel that I may never stray as you did
Again and again dependent on the day
To walk away from Him, God forbid.
May my heart stand firm against the sway
That tries to snatch me from His hand
Let this sheep come home never again to stray

~Alaina Mathers~

April '09

Black and White

"What`s wrong? What`s right? Absolute confusion.What`s black? What`s white? Everything looks hazy.Such scenarios bring me to only one conclusion-Maybe we`ve all gone crazy."

~Ginny Owens, "Land of the Grey"

Someday Soon

This post mostly goes out to my dear brother Remington, my best friend Katie, and all those other singles who are just waiting on God to bring them that special someone to have and to hold for the rest of their days. These are poems I have written as I have sat alone in the evenings after my family has gone to bed scattered with my floral photography of this summer. What can I say I'm a romantic at heart and though he's not here right now someday (soon I hope) he will be and I hope he will be all the things I have written about and more.

Someday Soon I’ll Stop Missing You
Tonight I wonder where you are,
Do you miss me?
Cause I miss you with all my heart.
It’s not even logical,
There’s no rhyme,
There’s no reason to this pain,
That has settled in my eyes.
But I miss you tonight anyway.
I want to feel your skin touch mine
Your fingertips to caress my hair,
Your lips to press against my cool brow,
I tremble at the mere thought,
You here with me.
Catching me when life hurts to much
Like it does tonight
Your healing touch to wipe away my tears
That fall silently ‘cause you’re not here
I want to hear you whisper goodbye
Your voice promising me we’ll be together soon
That you’ll never leave my side again
I need you tonight and you’re not here
How is it possible?
I miss you so much.
But how can I miss someone
I’ve never even met?
Is it possible?
Too long for my eyes to meet yours
When I don’t even know your name,
Someday it will be
We’ll remember the yesterdays
Spent holding hands tenderly
You will brush back my hair
As it blows in the wind
And I will be lost in your sweet eyes
You will hold my hand in yours
And I will give you my heart
Someday you will come.
Oh just let it be soon.
Come home soon to claim this heart
Come take my hand
So I can stop missing you.
So that my laughter can join yours
Someday soon come to this place
To walk with me along the river
Under the shining stars and full moon
We can talk of the sweet yesterdays
And the many tomorrows
Our dreams will join as our hearts do
Someday soon I hope to stop missing you.

A Moment in Time

What else is there today?
What is the meaning of it all?
How can I go on in this race?
How do I understand the whys?
Where is the answer to be found?
Where are your arms when I need them?
What do I do until you come and find me?
What is the meaning of your not being here now?
How does this love work?
How can I keep going without it?
Where is the softness of your lips on my brow?
Where are your hands when my tears fall silently?
What am I to do until you are here to wipe them away?
What will happen in this lifetime of mine?
Will it ever join yours?
Will you ever whisper sweet words in my ear?
When will the time be right for you to hold me?
When will you come and claim my heart?
All these questions asked remain unanswered,
But I will wait until the day the answers come
Until the day that your arms wrap me in sweet embrace
When my lips softly touch yours as you sigh
And brush my hair back from my face
And wipe away every tear that falls from my eye.

May I Give You Mine?
My heart trembles at the sight of you
Your presence steals any thought
You take my breath away
Do I turn your head?
Can you get lost in the blue of my eyes?
Does my soft touch feel like heaven?
I hope so but mostly I need to know
If you love me for the real me?
Do you want to know that I love to:
Dance in the rain
Laugh without abandon
Cuddle in front of a fire
Try to touch the stars.
I need to know that you will love me when:
I play in the dirt
Swim in the sea
Try to fly from the mountaintop
Will you join me or
Think I’ve gone crazy?
I need to know your dreams.
But do you want to know mine?

Do you love to:
Walk along the beach hand in hand
Go for long drives in the woods
Breathe in the scent of a spring rain
Try to rope the moon?
Do you need to know?
That I’ll love you forever
No matter what happens
I will follow you to the
Ends of the earth and beyond
I will be lost in your embrace
And never want to leave
I need to know if you:
Will you hold me for all time?
Catch me when I fall?
Brush away my tears?
I want to tell you everything
But will you give me your heart?
And may I give you mine?

Christ is my comfort each and everyday and keeps me going and loving, living, and more joyous than imaginable as well as at peace in learning contendedness (Is that a word?) where He has me planted. Even so it is fun to dream and write about the day when I will have someone by my side to go with, to love with, to live with, and to rejoice in the Lord with.